I used to think I did not like change. To me, it was a 4 letter word not to be embraced, said or envisioned.
Then I realized I NEED change.
I need change because it gives me purpose and helps me set meaningful goals. What I don’t like is unexpected change. I need it, but I want it to be on my terms.
But life isn’t like that.
And God doesn’t work on my terms.
I do exactly what Lysa Terkeurst says in the book Uninvited:
“I’m forever making suggestions and predictions. It’s as if I’m saying to God, ‘Here’s the plan, and, trust me: it’s really good, God. So if you could just bless all this…don’t mess with all this…just bless it and we’ll be good.'” (53)
But the thing is, when I do that I’m putting a limit on God. I’m suggesting that I know better than he does how to run the world. Or at least my world.
And I don’t want to run the world. I’m not a supervillain. It reminds me of the 90s TV show, “Pinky and the Brain”. Every episode Pinky asks the same question: “What are we going to do today?” And Brain responds: “What we do everyday; try to take over the world.”
As if two tiny mice could actually accomplish this goal, let alone doe the job well.
But aren’t I doing the same? I think I’m the “Brain”. Every day I try to take control from God and run things my way as if I could be more successful than He!
The other day, Rachel and I took a day trip to the beach. We were really excited, but woefully unprepared. Despite our intentions and plans, we quickly realized if we didn’t have a little shade, we would both be fried by the time we went home.
So I bought an umbrella thinking this would solve all our problems.
We had plans. First we tried with our own strength to get the pole down in the sand.
So we dug a hole.
Then we piled sand around the pole.
Then…nothing we planned worked and we were at a loss. What a waste!
Until a kind stranger came to the rescue. He had the tools to drill a hole for us. And the kindness to help show us the error of our ways and point us in a more successful direction.
If only we’d asked for this direction first, then we might have saved ourselves a konk or two on the head.
When the stranger drilled a hole, it worked. Despite all our plans and tries, we wouldn’t know the outcome but someone who knows more than us did.
God’s a little like that.
When we try to work things out all on our own and in our own way we get wacked in the head with an umbrella and strangely we often don’t realize that our efforts are, well, ridiculous.
The definition of insanity is trying to do the same thing over and expecting a different result.
So maybe it is time to stop the insanity and give up the “Pinky and the Brian” mentality. Maybe it’s time to let God drill the hole for us and well…